The insanity that is home buying!

So we found a great house. It has a bedroom and full bath on the main floor which we need for my MIL. Finding a house with this feature is very rare in the area we are moving too. So we made an offer, 14k under asking. They countered 6k over asking. So we countered back 9k under asking. Then it got hard. Someone else decided to offer. Now we have to submit our final and best and hope they pick us. We need this house for so many reasons. I hate this process. The up and down of emotion, the do this and do that of it all. We have placed furniture in our heads, we have budgeted and figured out every detail. It all sucks.

Beach Fun!

So we had our Beach weekend. All the fam was there and it was wonderful. The Hubs actually had the weekend off and I think he enjoyed himself. We ate enough fresh made salt water taffy to sink a ship. I am allergic to to much sodium so my lips puffed and my throat got tight but man was it yummy! We played in the water even though it was like walking into ...well.....the ocean, lol. Nice and cold but so wonderful. We found sand dollars and saw some awesome starfish.

Our cabin was to die for. Rustic as all get out with low ceilings and pine walls but way to much fun.



We also went to the next town up and played in the arcade for a while. The kids had a blast!! They loved running on the beach!



I also loved the quality time with my stud muffin!!





Only mar was being called by the wicked witch. She tried pretty hard to ruin our fun but we banned together and ignored her evil plot. I am hoping a house mushes her soon though.

News and junk!

So I am pretty excited about a few events on our horizons.

First off we are doing family portraits this Friday morning. Time for Squeak to show herself off a bit. I ordered her blessing gown and plan to recreate Bug's blessing pic. I am going to do a number of poses and such and I am so super excited!!

Friday afternoon we are going to the beach for the weekend! Woot! We rented a beach house in Cannon Beach and I can't wait. I have wanted to do this for years and it took the impending move to convince my Hubbilicious it was a must!

Which leads to the move. I am working with a mortgage broker to get our mortgage set and then house hunting here we come. I am stoked. This is our first home purchase and it is about time. we are bursting out of the seams of our little apartment. 5 people in 3 bedrooms totaling 1000 sq feet and I am asking for trouble. Add that our bedroom is off limits during the day while the hubs is asleep and that means oodles of baby stuff in the front room. We soooo need more space. I am excited to have a bigger kitchen. A garage is a must and having one will free up a lot of space as all the decoration boxes and camping gear are in our closets right now. My goal is at least 2000 sq feet, a garage, 4 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, and a decent kitchen.

Holy cow it has been a while.....

since I posted a blog eh? Welp time to update all my loyal readers. (Yes Maggy I mean you since one fan is all I've got, lol.)

January 2 we welcomed our little Squeak into the world. Squeak is a gorgeous girl. She has these color changing eyes that go smoky gray when she is hungry, bright blue when she is happy, and a tinge of green when she wishes for the ability to smack her dear mommy upside the head. She was 7 lbs 15oz making her 15oz bigger than Bug was. She is a perfect baby. She cries only when tired, hungry, or gassy. (She can be gassy fairly regularly! A stinkier baby I have never known. She has beautiful brown hair that loves to curl when wet. She loves bath time and hates sleeping on her back. We were lucky enough that my Mom got to be here for her birth. Mom always makes something scary easier to do!!

Bug is an awesome big sister. She loves to hold the baby and Squeak just lights up whenever she hears Bug's voice. Bug is doing well in school and is learning to read more and more every day. We are so proud of her. She also is growing like a weed. We had to buy her lots of pants because all the others had gotten short over night it seems. She is loving that Grandma A is here to play with and with the addition of my nephew she always has someone to hang out with.

The hubs and I celebrated 8 years of wedded bliss on the 3rd. I have to say I love him more every day. There is no one who knows me better or who I can count on more. The 8th gifts are appliances and copper, lol. We went a bit unromantic and he got 3 new guns with bullets. (Bullets are at least copper colored!) I got a new phone that I adore and my own gun with bullets. It is a cute little .40 that fits perfectly in my hand. We are also gonna get me a 9 mm to carry on a conceal carry permit. Anyway....... Anniversary was good!!

Soooooo all my fears from previous posts proved groundless. I have only had a couple bad days with my manic and my Dr. is very pleased. I have fallen into mothering a baby again with ease. Both girls are very well loved and they know it!!

In a week and a half we do a beach weekend! I am so excited. I love the ocean and will miss it once we move. Yup I said move!! we will be moving in the next 4-5 months. I am anxious but thrilled too. We will be buying our first house and I can't wait!! We really need the space with the full house we have been sporting!!

I am off to cook dinner for the clan. Later gator!!

One of those days.

My last couple posts have been so down that I hate adding more negativity but I seem mired in it. Seriously I don't want to talk to anyone, see anyone, go anywhere, do anything. I am just tired. I am uncomfortable and yucky and I hate it. I am so excited for the baby to be here and so scared. Scared of where my moods could go, scared of our little threesome becoming a foursome and being too much for me, scared of not being able to handle it, scared I will go so completely out of it that I hurt myself or someone I love, scared that my world is never going to be the same. Sure I know changes happen, I know I have wanted this baby for a very long time. I know we are meant to be a foursome but still I feel so afraid. I am so afraid I will fail my husband and children when I am needed most. I am constantly stressed these days and rarely find relief. I am super easily annoyed and fairly miserable most of the time. The hubs and Bug are the only two I feel good with. They have always been able to light my life when I need it. I know how blessed I am to have finally been able to carry another baby. I know how blessed I am to have a man who totally and completely fits with me. I know how blessed I am to have such a beautiful, smart, sweet, loving daughter. I know I am blessed by so many things yet still I feel so depressed. I feel like I am drifting and a bit lost. I feel physically ill with regularity. I don't feel like the me I want to be anymore.

Emotional Me!

So I am feeling like a manic crazy person. I just about had a melt down because the pizza I ordered wasn't right when they delivered it. I am a teary mess today. I am also upset because we may have to get rid of one of our cats. She has no clue how to deal with her claws so everything gets scratched and she pees all over any fabric she finds. I had hoped she would grow out of both but she hasn't and neither habit is okay for a baby. I am sure that is the root of my emotional junk but it sucks so much. This is our daughters cat and I know she will be devastated. I am also scared she will blame the baby which could create some tension there. Ugggg. I swear I get one stressful thing out of my life and a new one pops in. I am a firm believer that God gives us only what we can handle but it would be nice if he didn't think I could handle so much. I would like a break, at least until the baby is here, then I'll take the baby stress and all the other junk will seem pale, lol. I think I may go take a bath and hope that helps to relax me so I can stop crying at the drop of a hat.

Happiness is.......

getting woken up by a gorgeous man kissing you and telling you how beautiful you are even though you feel like a large whale.

having a wonderful daughter who kisses your belly before she even says good morning to you, thus proving her amazing big sister skills.

chocolate.

foot rubs and lazy days.

best friends.

sunshine.

watching a fun movie with your child and seeing her eyes light up at the happily ever after part.

butterfly kisses.

bubble baths.

yummy smelling kitty cats.

stretchy pants.

Thanksgiving dinners with family.

Christmas mornings.

I think my list could go on forever. I am so very blessed and so unbelievably lucky. Even on my worst days I can come up with a never ending supply of beautiful things that fill my life.